You're just gonna have to trust that I'm telling you the truth then buddy.....your ego exists, period. What do you think spirit is? Spirit creates ALL. I can't really think of much else that I can say without starting into argument, because I can't come up with the right words to express what I know at this moment....It seems like you've got a bias against ego based on painful experiences and a lack of understanding though.
Try not to take what I'm saying as insulting your intelligence; know that I'm not trying to mislead you, and that the spirit, which created/creates ego did not do so without reason.
Edit:One more thing to mention, in reference to your prior message, is that even though the entire universe is indeed ONE thing.....being/organism/consciousness.......that doesn't mean that in a state of health and wholeness all of its parts act based on one will......all of its parts/components act based on one SPIRIT......Free Will is indeed real, and multiple components of the same consciousness system can have individual will and still work together in harmony.
Edit2:I guess I should clarify something I said in my first post.....I wrote that when you are connected to love, you still use your ego.....I should have said that ego still exists, and the spirit can act through it.....I see the ego as a sort of.....tool for expression on certain scales/in certain situations.
Edit3:To address something that mrr said in her original post.....a reason for apathy is that you have become conditioned not to follow certain natural impulses.....in other words, you are afraid to follow those impulses/to go down those roads....so metaphorically, you're only allowing part of yourself to live, not the whole of yourself.....so you get used to living at say 90%, you get used to the feeling of part of your self being atrophied, and that wears on your will......which is how apathy can come about. It gets played out as "Why bother putting lots of effort into activity X? Part of me is in a state of unlife/death/being stunted, and therefore it's possible that that could happen to other parts of me also.....why should I put full effort into life when I'm not even being allowed to fully live?" The good thing is, which is how this ties in with love/fear, is that by addressing reality with truth/love you can overcome any fear, and find out that you CAN go down those roads that you were conditioned through pain and fear to avoid.